Lyrics- All Alone

You took my heart
and stabbed it twice
you didn't know how much i loved you
you said you cared, and so i fell
in love with you so naturally

you don't have to lie
because you did
it anyways
and fucked
Monica
while you were still with me
how could this be?
you're such a fucking jerk

you told me you loved me
you told me i needed you all my life
but that's where you're wrong
because I never needed, you all along

you told me you loved me
you told me I meant the world to you
but you wanted to risk it
and look where you're now
looking like a scum
all alone
all alone
all alone
all alone
all alone

ohhhh, I should've seen all the warnings coming at me babe
but nooooooo, i never saw it because I trusted you
I never wanted to believe in anything they've told me
I just wanted to have a really good relationship

but apparently
I wasnt
good enough
so you
decided
to fuck her
even though you had
everything
how could this be
you disgust me

you told me you loved me
you told me i needed you all my life
but thats where you're wrong
because I never needed, you all along

you told me you loved me
you told me I meant the world to you
but you wanted to risk it
and look where you're now
looking like a scum
all alone
all alone
all alone
all alone
all alone

Dedicated to Alexander Burke

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRs3oWuTNYQ

This person that i have never met, has truly touched my heart. I am sharing this video on my blog because people need to realize how much pain people go through and how much they lose when they are going through tough times. When i watched his videos, I cried and I cried. Knowing that this person was dying and was still being optimistic through hard times. He was still making videos and giving an example of a true strong person. Honestly I'm really sad that this person passed away and that he lost friends along the way. Its very heartbreaking. This video makes me realize that I should never take my life for granted and to continue to stay grounded. And to love people no matter how mean they are to me or treat me badly. Alex is a true inspiration and I hope that all of you people that read this blog, will watch this video and feel the same way too. I shall always remember you Alexander Burke.

Lyrics- Stressed

I'm sick and tired, I'm sick and tired
I'm out of my head, I'm out my head
don't you ever, don't you ever
get far ahead, wanna get far ahead
instead you come round my door
begging for help, just wanting more
don't you ever know when to stop
but sadly, apparently not

you can try telling me what do
who i can and cant talk to
but you know what, this has nothing to do with you
so i don't even see why you bother stepping in
because you don't give a shit on how i felt
in the past i told you the key to my heart
when we were just friends living the life
but you just couldn't give up the crack and so i moved on
i told you how i felt, and you gave me mixed signals
so instead i went with someone else
who turned out to be just another fuck up, all i got to say
that was my biggest mistake
so you both can thank yourselves, for all that karma coming your way

I'm sick and tired, I'm sick and tired
I'm out of my head, I'm out my head
don't you ever, don't you ever
get far ahead, wanna get far ahead
instead you come round my door
begging for help, just wanting more
don't you ever know when to stop
but sadly, apparently not

i just keep on thinking of, all the things you've done
and it breaks my heart, to have to put it in a song
but I'm happy now, because I've found someone else
who was there for me, when you weren't there
you would've had me, a long time ago
but instead you were a coward and never told me so
i am sorry, but i need to go
you have my forgiveness, but its time to move forward

Lyrics- NRS

Just like the ocean outside
Just like the leaves floating by
After all that's been done
yet you cant still see
Just like the clouds floating high
Just like birds soaring by
oh what have you done

i just don't see how this is
after i have told you
how i feel about the situation
yet you still take this risk
going around and talking

Just like the buildings way high
Just like the statues in disguise
you just cant stop at all
even though i explained it a million times
why are you such a wreck
i thought you were a hot shot...
little darling

so please let me be
i haven't done anything to you
all i wanted was your friendship
i did like you, but i don't want to risk it
and you already blew it
so move along now
i think its better that way
so no one gets hurt in the end

Just like a funerals grave
Just like the smell of fresh flowers
its over now
you arent the one for me, so let it be

An Ex Crush

私が愛にある世界に2人が公式にそこにある。 1つは他はメキシコであるが、フィリピンである。 けれどもそれらは両方類似している。 フィリピン人はnorwen名前を挙げられる。 私はnorwenすべて好み、が、彼は鍋をたいそう煙らし、学校でそれをよくしない。 メキシコ人は一方では彼の学校の仕事のかなりよく、よりよい等級を得るようである。 しかし持っている大きい耳をnorwen間、彼に大きい鼻がある。 私はそれら両方が完全なぜであることができなかったか意味するか。 しかし私は知らない。 他の人の記号名は攻撃者である。 私は実際に彼をたくさん好む。 彼はそこに私は誰かが話すことを必要とし、それのための彼を認める時に常にだった。 彼は私に素晴らしくなく常に、決して私判断されなかった。 彼は甘く、親切であり、私は彼のための彼を常に愛する、または私はことを私が考えるatleast。 しかし私は彼がまだ彼の元ガールフレンドを乗り越えてしまわなかったこと、そして実際に傷ことがわかっている。 しかしオハイオ州の井戸。 私がもうしてもいい多くがない。 時間だけ告げることができる。

A Quick Blog

こんにちは私の名前はpuaであり、私はホノルル、ハワイで生まれた。 私は多くの本を読み、映画を見ることを楽しむことを愛する。 私はまた叙情詩をたくさん歌い、書くことを愛する。 私はその友人のために現在スクリーンの演劇に生命を遠くに書いている。 私はカリフォルニアに今住んでいるが、まだハワイを逃す。 ここに私の伯母さんおよび叔父さんだけある。 私は実際に私の旧友をしかし逃す。 私は私がそれらをより頻繁に見ることができるが、平らな料金が価格でまだ高いことを望む。 とにかく井戸はこれ夕方の私のブログである。 そして私はそれを読むことを楽しんだことを望む。

Lyrical/Rap- When You Call My Name

When you call my name I swear
you cant bring me down because you want me to fail
When you call my name you just
seem so weak because you cant take the heat
another day

everything seems like a blur
and yet i cant see a thing
even if i told you, you couldn't comprehend a thing
i walk around the hall, hearing all these bad things
and they all have one thing in common
and that would be me
i bend over backwards, because that's just me
yet i get knocked down, as if you've known me
i try to walk, all mighty and tall
but all you fuckin haters think you're above it all
I'm humble and grounded, and never judge
but all you fuckin bitches
wont shut up

When you call my name I swear
you cant bring me down because you want me to fail
When you call my name you just
seem so weak because you cant take the heat
another day

Have you ever felt so sick, hearing all this shit
it just makes me feel so nauseated and just wanna ditch
every where I go, its the same lame stories
of things that never happened and isn't even true
people get insecure, when ever i enter
but as soon as i leave
the hell gates flood open
these haters are diseases, they spread like plagues
yet they never confront me, until they got bomb bay!!!

When you call my name I swear
you cant bring me down because you want me to fail
When you call my name you just
seem so weak because you cant take the heat
another day

To You Haters Out There

I find today to be a really nice day. Its sunny, its bright and its lovely. I can't wait to go home though and sleep. Today is going to be a very chill day with a good 3 day weekend for my mother. Awesome. I actually find blogging fun, because I get to express how I feel and such. I also find it quite entertaining and relaxing. Well i officially finished my screen-play for a friend and I hope he will enjoy it too. A lot of things have happened through my life. Many things that i should had not gone through. But its OK, because it is only making me a better and stronger person. People say a lot about me...and yes it hurts. But what can I do about it? Yes I have been in love with someone before, and it really hurt when they did many horrible things. I know a lot of friends are mad at me and its all good, because this isn't your life, its my life. I appreciate all of your advice and everything, but at the end of the day. You need to understand that this is my decision and what I do, shouldn't matter to you. I love who I am and I accepted the fact that i have a complex that tends to intimidate people or make people jealous and insecure over me. I just want to be friends with everyone. I hate cliques, I hate fighting, jealousy, insecurity. I just want all of you to get along. Its very frustrating when I'm trying to have a good friendship with someone and you people keep doing this to me. You guys are giving me hell and I'm trying to think of the best solution as possible to make everyone happy!!! I DON'T LIKE ANYONE!!! AND I AM NEVER GONNA GO OUT WITH ANYONE UNTIL AFTER HIGH SCHOOL!!! And i am going to continue to reject you people because I have other things like my education and career that i need to handle before anything else. So people, PLEASE LEAVE ME AND WHO I TALK TO ALONE!!!! Ive had it. And I'm sorry to those readers out there that don't know me. This is too much unnecessary drama that I'm dealing with and i just want a normal life. I never asked for any of this. Its like sometimes i wish i was ugly and nasty looking, because its hard to have a descent friendship with people especially with females because they get all jealous and bitchy about shit i don't even know half of the time and its humiliating. I cant help it that I'm not 100% girlie or fake or plastic and that I'm a genuine nice person!!! I can't help it that I'm a girlified tom boy and have more male friends more so than females. I have no control over that. So again, I'm sorry that I'm coming off a little harsh but its the truth and I needed to get this off my chest. If you read this and you're someone I know, please don't take it personal and at least try to see where I'm coming from. I just want to get my point across. :)

Lyrics- Young Baby Lovers

i was a young little thing
looking for my romantic scene
but it just seemed too soon
to be in love

my first Lil crush stumbled across the lawn
with a bunch of flowers looking
all fresh

but how can this be pure love
when we are so young
i just don't know, how i feel
i want to believe
but its so hard, when we're so young

and so i take your hand
and place it within my own
feeling all warm in side and so blue

cause when i looked at you
you make me blush so bright
and that's when i knew
that you were the one for me
and that we'll be lovers....for thee

Lyrics- What Have We Talked About

When i talked to you
i thought we had an understanding
that it was nothing personal
it was just something sincere
but you couldn't except it
see you're just gonna have to move on
because if not, its just gonna devour you

Why the hell are you still here
you disgust me with your sad self
coming around my place
for an explanation, when i gave you one
so please

i thought we were passed this
but you just keep bringing it up
as if you never understood
on what we agreed on
and so I'm sorry
but you're on your own now
so please forgive me
because all i have to say is

Why the hell are you still here
you disgust me with your sad self
coming around my place
for an explanation, when i gave you one
so leave

Lyrics- People

Every where that i go
people cant shut up
i just don't know why i even try
they just keep pullin me down
all the way to the ground
i just don't wanna deal with it anymore

so i walk out on the street
and take a cab to the beach
its dark and late, such a creepy place
but right now i can really care less

people all over the world, seem to have the same
problems in mind
but there's only so much that we can do

so every where that i go
people cant shut up
i just don't know why i even try
they just keep pullin me down
all the way to the ground
i just don't wanna deal with it anymore

People are harsh, and that's just how they are
so I'm just gonna have to give it all my heart
and stick it out until the end
through the easiest and toughest times

Lyrics- What-ever

People can say what ever
I'm not gonna let them get to me
because I'm better than that
i can handle it

Everyday that i walk by i always think
about the way i am
and why all these people keep coming by
giving me hell

I don't see what the big deal is, on what i wear
or why it even matters
for all i know they shouldn't care

chores: care,care,care
People can say what ever
I'm not gonna let them get to me
because I'm better than that
i can handle it

I don't see what the big deal, is on who I'm friends with
it shouldn't matter to you,
or anyone else

Because I'm not that kind of chick
to be all fake and plastic
i just love who i am and
that's all I care

People need to back off
and move along instead of staring
and gossiping

They can say what ever
for all i care, they are insecure
I'm just trying, to live my life

Short Story- Dilema - Episode 1

When I woke up, my room was pitch black. I couldn't see a thing. I turned to the side of my bed and realized that it was only 3 a.m. in the morning. I turn back on my bed and lay there, my head feels sweaty as if i had a nightmare. I close my eyes, bringing my mind to ease. Suddenly my phone starts to ring at exactly 3:01 a.m. I reach across the stand and answer the call..."hello," I answer groggily. But there is nothing but static. "Hello?" I ask again. I'm thinking about hanging up but for some reason I continue to wait. After nearly 30 seconds of waiting, I finally give up on waiting and start crossing over again to end the line. "Hello....Sarah," replied a mysterious voice. Quickly I pull the receiver back to my ear, "Who is this? How do you know my name?" "Ohhhh dearies, I know a lot about you and you're gonna die in exactly 30 days" I gasp in shock, "What do you mean I'm gonna die in 30 days? You cant do this to me??? Who are you?" The line goes dead. I sit there too stunned to believe what I just heard. Its just a prank, I think to myself....only a prank. I hang up the receiver and go back to sleep.

Up and Down

The world today is a cold society to live in. People are rude. People are greedy. People are selfish. And people are envious. What ever happened to world peace? The pursuit of happiness? Its like that hardly exists anymore. There are also a lot of haters in the world these days, and its getting to the children as well.
Everyday I have to go to a school that isnt that great. Kids smoke pakalolo in the class. They graffiti all over the place. They are rude and they have no manners whatsoever. The teachers dont seem to care anymore and if they do, they arent that good at expressing it to their students. There are fights nearly everyday and its heart breaking to live through it. I get judged and picked on by a lot by people I dont even know. Im barely hanging on through high school, trying to ignore them as much as i can. But, the people at my school continue to act immature because they dont care and could care less.
Society as a whole, seems to be falling apart slowly, withering away. Students dont seem to realize how important their education is to life and how it will help them to succeed. People want to continue fighting through wars. People continue to be greedy and cut other people down and throw them in front of the bus for their mistakes. But again, people dont care. They say they want a change to a better future, but being realistic...it aint gonna happen unless we each do our own part and make society the best as it good be.

Have I Found You

Every time that i see you
you make me go insane
i don't know why but it happens anyway
you just stand there and stare
smiling and such, humming to a familiar tune
leaving me confused

i go on with my day, and you continue as well
i hang with my friends and so do you
i walk home and there you are across the street
standing, staring, beaming with smiles

i start to wonder if i actually do know you
and i start to get a feeling that as a matter of fact i do
yet i don't remember when or how...
so the next day i build up my confidence
and walk over to say whats up?
i stand in front of you and before i even say a word
you embrace me in a hug and whisper

"I knew you would find me again someday!!!
In our past life you were my wife. And i always loved you.
You do remember don't you???"

I pull away and look into his eyes
they seem familiar and sincere
yet as much as i wanted to believe
i just couldn't

i look at him avoiding his eyes this time
"Only time could tell... no i don't remember...
you don't seem familiar at all.
If it is meant to be, then our paths should cross again in the future.
If not...I'm sorry."

When i finally looked up to see his face
the smile was long gone full of pain
i turned and started to walk away
the farther i walked
the heavier my eyes started to tear

the way he embraced me
brought back a bunch of memories
i never knew existed
i started to feel a massive heartache
of pain and despair
a tear escaped from my eyes
leaving a streak across my face

not even half way across the field
i turn around
and he is still standing there
stiff like a bulletin board
pale like a ghost

suddenly i start to take little steps
back in that same direction
he looks confused
i walk a little faster
he looks more confused
i break into a jog
he looks astonished
i start to breath heavily
he opens up his arms
and i start to run

the next thing i know
my heart is pounding as
we are both embracing each other
my arms are wrapped around him
as I whisper

"I know...I remember. But I still don't see how that's possible.
All i know is that I do know you somehow, but not from this lifetime.
And i thank you for that... I love you."

Who Am I

I am tall, yet I am strong. I am kind, but I'm not always nice. I am a somewhat alcoholic, or at least I used to be. A part of me is made out of steel, but I'm not easily brought down like the man of steel. Nothing like kryptonite can ever bring me down, because I am immune and can cause some serious damage. I have gadgets and I fly. You wouldn't even know I were coming by. Until I soared passed you, leaving you all confused. Wondering like a burnt fuse. I don't need a bat mobile or some kind of flying bat jet. For I am more resourceful than the dark knight, as far as, getting technical with technology and weaponry devices. I'm not a bird nor a plane. Who am I?

Lyrics-my lil rap :)

hey...my name is pua
I'm from moanalua, so if you ever see me you better say hey!!!
cus if you don't, I'll be making my way
across the ocean from L.A.

I love to laugh and make people smile
so don't be hatin if you cant smile
I love what I do, even though I get judged
I'm above the influence and that's what counts

running, jogging, push-ups, and all
you name it, i can do it all
nothing can stop me in this world
as long as i can handle, you have my word

I'm a writer, a designer, a thinker, a singer
i do all this for pure entertainment
if it weren't for that, i wouldn't be here
i could be smoking pakalolo for all i care

But I'm not, because i ain't trash
I'm not gonna end my life just like that
I'm gonna be wealthy and travel the world
and I'm gonna buy my Bentley and hit the road

So if you ever see me you better say hey!!!
I'm just keepin it real for all i care

Emotions

The world is a place full of emotions. A place where anything is possible and obtainable. A place that is like haven and hell. But what is haven? What is hell? They are both places we have heard of. But they are nothing like our world. One is peaceful and bright, while the other is sinister and dark. We as people have the humanity to make good as well as bad decisions. There is no such thing as being perfect, because if that were so, you would be like some holy god who could punish fallen angels. Yet you can never be as evil as "Lucifer the Devil" himself. Therefore, our world is a place where we continue to bring forth peace towards ill emotions such as envy, jealousy, and selfishness. Because in the end those three emotions are what corrupts our society like an atomic bomb.

Sun

The sun is the only thing that keeps us alive and warm. The sun is what makes us mellow and calm through our lifetime. If it werent for the sun, we would be coldhearted like stone that would be turned to ash. By then there would be no such thing of what we call "the fire star" our golden light. We would be in a black hole, warpped through time. Being crushed against our own will, through pressure that couldn't even be seen with the human's naked eye. But that is the future. We are the now. So the only thing that we can do now is to enjoy the warmness along with happiness and not take life for granted. Because we never know when that day of coldness shall come our way and leave what would then be our past, in darkness.

Lyrics-Attacker

When i hear your voice
You make me smile
Cause im all alone
In this crappy house
Somtimes i just wanna break away
Fly away, to a distant place
But instead i am tied down
Locked down
Stuck inside,as if i were on house arrest
It just makes me wanna cry
Feeling all alone inside
But hey! Now i found a new person
That i like to talk to
That fills up my time with joy
So hey what the hell?
He doesnt even know me
Yet he treats me really nice
He seems like the type of guy
That knows how to treat a girl right!

A Boy

There was a boy who I once considered my one and only "prince charming". He was the type of guy that had everything a girl could possibly want. The way he walked and gazed his eyes upon you made you feel so light like a feather, to the point that it couldnt possibly be real. As if you were walking through a nocturnal fairytale where he is the only light guiding you through. He would speak to me everyday and tell me "you mean the world to me...I love you". So then i fell in love naturally, allowing those words to suck me in like pure venom ready to spread the virus. Then I thought "he is the love of my life." But then all of those feelings suddenly went out the door as if it were draining out of me. Getting stabbed with those painful words saying, "you're not the one for me...its over." I stood there in shock and full of hurt. Its like I got hit by a bus and it reversed to run me over again and again. I dont even know what happened. Its like one week we're the happiest couple alive, then the very next week its like it never happened. Then I said, "So you're just gonna drop our friendship like that? We cant be friends?" He looked at me and answered sarcasticlly, "You dont wanna go to prom with me, therefore, its over. I am gonna drop you just like that." I looked at him feeling all numb and empty inside. I couldnt even believe or comprehend what i was hearing. "Just like that?" I whispered. And he answered like a complete jerk, "Yup." And thats when I finally realized that he was a waste of time and isnt worth one single tear. I walked away without saying another word. My mind was spining as if I were about to clapse and slowly wither away. Yet, I wasn't going to give that heartbreaker any satisfaction. The next day I showed up at school with my head held up high full of smiles, even though deep down I was hurting. It wasn't even 24 hours and he already had his arms around his arms around his new boy toy. But I looked at him and smiled, because I know deep down that karma is a pain that will eventually come his way. Like someone told me, "A boy like that will always be a player at heart. Its just part of his nature. He dropped a really good girl and he doesn't even know it. He had it all, but decided to throw it away. So deal with it and move on," and so I did.

Lyrics-Lonely

Everday that im here,I feel like
Im starting to lose myself little by day,
I just cant believe, that Im still here,
Weeping all sad inside.

There is a pain that I feel, that is sharp
Like a blade that sticks it to me, just to
Rub it in, making me realize,

(2x)How miserable my life is, in this hell hole of a place,
that makes me wanna go far away, and leave when im 18 for sure,
for sure.

Everyday that im here, I feel like
Im throwing my life away waiting for it just to end,
Because im starting to feel insecure.

When I should be having the time of my life
instead of staying in bed and crying, I
should be happy with all smiles, and so I think,

(2x)How miserable my life is, in this hell hole of a place,
that makes me wanna go far away, and leave when im 18 for sure,
for sure.

What the hell am I waiting for? I wish
I could walk towards that light, knowing that someone
Would be waiting on thy other side. So please wait for me,
Even though you are so far away, from my dreadful place,
But I hope to see you soon

Today

Today was just like any other day, unfortunately. I get up every morning just to go to a claustrophobic cubical. Wow...doesn't that sound "soooo amazing?" Hahahaha its not. Well for some people it is something to look forward to. But not when you're a 16 year old girl. I should be going out with friends, having the time of my life. But no. According to mom she would rather have me go with her to that dreading cubical. Dragging me along towards insanity. I think I'm losing my mind sitting in that little cube. Oh well. Having the time of my life i guess. I don't see how you people can stay in a cube for 8 hours. I would've quit my job and went to the beach instead. Oh well, again. Well this is officially my first boring blog to match my topic, but I'm really not this boring. This is based upon my mood at the moment. So if you read this, you didn't gain anything out of it, but thanks for reading it anyways.