To You Haters Out There

I find today to be a really nice day. Its sunny, its bright and its lovely. I can't wait to go home though and sleep. Today is going to be a very chill day with a good 3 day weekend for my mother. Awesome. I actually find blogging fun, because I get to express how I feel and such. I also find it quite entertaining and relaxing. Well i officially finished my screen-play for a friend and I hope he will enjoy it too. A lot of things have happened through my life. Many things that i should had not gone through. But its OK, because it is only making me a better and stronger person. People say a lot about me...and yes it hurts. But what can I do about it? Yes I have been in love with someone before, and it really hurt when they did many horrible things. I know a lot of friends are mad at me and its all good, because this isn't your life, its my life. I appreciate all of your advice and everything, but at the end of the day. You need to understand that this is my decision and what I do, shouldn't matter to you. I love who I am and I accepted the fact that i have a complex that tends to intimidate people or make people jealous and insecure over me. I just want to be friends with everyone. I hate cliques, I hate fighting, jealousy, insecurity. I just want all of you to get along. Its very frustrating when I'm trying to have a good friendship with someone and you people keep doing this to me. You guys are giving me hell and I'm trying to think of the best solution as possible to make everyone happy!!! I DON'T LIKE ANYONE!!! AND I AM NEVER GONNA GO OUT WITH ANYONE UNTIL AFTER HIGH SCHOOL!!! And i am going to continue to reject you people because I have other things like my education and career that i need to handle before anything else. So people, PLEASE LEAVE ME AND WHO I TALK TO ALONE!!!! Ive had it. And I'm sorry to those readers out there that don't know me. This is too much unnecessary drama that I'm dealing with and i just want a normal life. I never asked for any of this. Its like sometimes i wish i was ugly and nasty looking, because its hard to have a descent friendship with people especially with females because they get all jealous and bitchy about shit i don't even know half of the time and its humiliating. I cant help it that I'm not 100% girlie or fake or plastic and that I'm a genuine nice person!!! I can't help it that I'm a girlified tom boy and have more male friends more so than females. I have no control over that. So again, I'm sorry that I'm coming off a little harsh but its the truth and I needed to get this off my chest. If you read this and you're someone I know, please don't take it personal and at least try to see where I'm coming from. I just want to get my point across. :)

Lyrics- Young Baby Lovers

i was a young little thing
looking for my romantic scene
but it just seemed too soon
to be in love

my first Lil crush stumbled across the lawn
with a bunch of flowers looking
all fresh

but how can this be pure love
when we are so young
i just don't know, how i feel
i want to believe
but its so hard, when we're so young

and so i take your hand
and place it within my own
feeling all warm in side and so blue

cause when i looked at you
you make me blush so bright
and that's when i knew
that you were the one for me
and that we'll be lovers....for thee

Lyrics- What Have We Talked About

When i talked to you
i thought we had an understanding
that it was nothing personal
it was just something sincere
but you couldn't except it
see you're just gonna have to move on
because if not, its just gonna devour you

Why the hell are you still here
you disgust me with your sad self
coming around my place
for an explanation, when i gave you one
so please

i thought we were passed this
but you just keep bringing it up
as if you never understood
on what we agreed on
and so I'm sorry
but you're on your own now
so please forgive me
because all i have to say is

Why the hell are you still here
you disgust me with your sad self
coming around my place
for an explanation, when i gave you one
so leave

Lyrics- People

Every where that i go
people cant shut up
i just don't know why i even try
they just keep pullin me down
all the way to the ground
i just don't wanna deal with it anymore

so i walk out on the street
and take a cab to the beach
its dark and late, such a creepy place
but right now i can really care less

people all over the world, seem to have the same
problems in mind
but there's only so much that we can do

so every where that i go
people cant shut up
i just don't know why i even try
they just keep pullin me down
all the way to the ground
i just don't wanna deal with it anymore

People are harsh, and that's just how they are
so I'm just gonna have to give it all my heart
and stick it out until the end
through the easiest and toughest times

Lyrics- What-ever

People can say what ever
I'm not gonna let them get to me
because I'm better than that
i can handle it

Everyday that i walk by i always think
about the way i am
and why all these people keep coming by
giving me hell

I don't see what the big deal is, on what i wear
or why it even matters
for all i know they shouldn't care

chores: care,care,care
People can say what ever
I'm not gonna let them get to me
because I'm better than that
i can handle it

I don't see what the big deal, is on who I'm friends with
it shouldn't matter to you,
or anyone else

Because I'm not that kind of chick
to be all fake and plastic
i just love who i am and
that's all I care

People need to back off
and move along instead of staring
and gossiping

They can say what ever
for all i care, they are insecure
I'm just trying, to live my life

Short Story- Dilema - Episode 1

When I woke up, my room was pitch black. I couldn't see a thing. I turned to the side of my bed and realized that it was only 3 a.m. in the morning. I turn back on my bed and lay there, my head feels sweaty as if i had a nightmare. I close my eyes, bringing my mind to ease. Suddenly my phone starts to ring at exactly 3:01 a.m. I reach across the stand and answer the call..."hello," I answer groggily. But there is nothing but static. "Hello?" I ask again. I'm thinking about hanging up but for some reason I continue to wait. After nearly 30 seconds of waiting, I finally give up on waiting and start crossing over again to end the line. "Hello....Sarah," replied a mysterious voice. Quickly I pull the receiver back to my ear, "Who is this? How do you know my name?" "Ohhhh dearies, I know a lot about you and you're gonna die in exactly 30 days" I gasp in shock, "What do you mean I'm gonna die in 30 days? You cant do this to me??? Who are you?" The line goes dead. I sit there too stunned to believe what I just heard. Its just a prank, I think to myself....only a prank. I hang up the receiver and go back to sleep.

Up and Down

The world today is a cold society to live in. People are rude. People are greedy. People are selfish. And people are envious. What ever happened to world peace? The pursuit of happiness? Its like that hardly exists anymore. There are also a lot of haters in the world these days, and its getting to the children as well.
Everyday I have to go to a school that isnt that great. Kids smoke pakalolo in the class. They graffiti all over the place. They are rude and they have no manners whatsoever. The teachers dont seem to care anymore and if they do, they arent that good at expressing it to their students. There are fights nearly everyday and its heart breaking to live through it. I get judged and picked on by a lot by people I dont even know. Im barely hanging on through high school, trying to ignore them as much as i can. But, the people at my school continue to act immature because they dont care and could care less.
Society as a whole, seems to be falling apart slowly, withering away. Students dont seem to realize how important their education is to life and how it will help them to succeed. People want to continue fighting through wars. People continue to be greedy and cut other people down and throw them in front of the bus for their mistakes. But again, people dont care. They say they want a change to a better future, but being realistic...it aint gonna happen unless we each do our own part and make society the best as it good be.